I just feel like things are so wrong right now, like my feelings are not sorted out the way it’s supposed to be. I miss everything that happened back when our JS prom practice was just something that I’m looking forward to because I’d be safe from classes, but as time goes by I feel like I’m excited for practice because that’s the only time that I’d get to see you. I miss the way you hold my hand. The way you spin me like no could do so perfectly. I feel like your hand fits my hand perfectly, I know that I probably sound super creepy right now but I feel safe around you. I miss your encouragements. When I ALWAYS do the steps wrong and then I’ll tell you that I’m such a failure and I’m so sorry that I’m your partner. You’ll tell me that it’s okay, you can do it. And you never fail to make me feel that I can really do something right. I mean nobody can do that. I just miss it when you tell me those things. Especially when I’m afraid of our freaking teacher every time he/she is yelling at our group because I’m such a failure. I never thought that I can like you in just a short period of time. But to be honest, it’s not impossible. I like the way you look at me, and then you’ll stick your tongue out in a super cute way. It’s the only way we can communicate even if were apart. Or every time our eyes accidentally meet each other. God, those were the times that I wish our prom practices doesn’t have to end. And when we had our table… that was the time that I finally got to know you better. You told me a lot of things you never told anyone before like your family problems and how you missed your dad. And seeing that vulnerable side of you somewhat made me feel like I feel the same way, too. There were a lot of things to talk about, and the world around me doesn’t matter when I talk to you. I miss hearing your laughs, I feel like I’m the only person who could make you laugh because I think you’re the kind of person who doesn’t joke around much. I just can’t explain what I felt back in those times, when I’m so comfortable talking to you. I just miss those times that I know I could never have back.
Prom… I really felt like I was the most important person and the most beautiful person to you that night. When I showed up and you were like staring at me for like 5 seconds or something. And then I told you that I feel ugly and you told me that no, I think you’re really beautiful and then you asked your friends that “She’s beautiful, right?” . And then you smiled at me and made things right, like everything will be okay. That was the night that I felt really really ugly and I’m not confident with my look. You were the only person who told me I was beautiful, like in the sincerest way possible. And then you comforted me about the unexpected person who showed up that night, and I told you about how I felt and I told you that I don’t want to dance with him. And you told me that you’ll get me from him when you saw me dancing with him. You were my strength that night if you only knew. We talked for hours and I told you I was nervous and you told me to just be confident because there’s nothing to worry about. After our turn and I obviously made a lot of mistakes you told me that it’s alright, you’re good and that’s all it matters. You told me a lot of things that I wanted to hear. You were everything that I never thought a person could be. And remember when I was waiting for the one I like to dance with me first? Remember when I was getting my hopes up that he’ll dance with me even if I know he hates me? Remember when I was expecting until I saw him asking his bestfriend to be his first dance? And then when you saw me, the way my face betrayed me for not hiding my emotions, you asked me if you could take his place. And then we danced and then I was on the verge of crying, and i swear to God that I’ll cry if you hadn’t told me that “Please don’t cry, I’m still here” and then I looked into your eyes and I don’t know if it’s just me but your eyes were pleading like it’s telling me to just please let it go, and then you asked me “Do you really want to forget him?” and I told you “Yes, it’s over. It’s all over. I gave him the chance to make things right but he blew it” and then you told me “Please don’t ruin your night because of him. I’ll dance with you not until someone asked to dance with you.” and then I SWEAR TO GOD THAT I FELT LIKE YOU HELD ME CLOSE. And then I realized that you’re keeping me together, like you’re keeping me from falling apart. You became my strength. That moment was so perfect, I wish it never stopped. And then every time you see me sitting alone, you’ll ask me if we can dance together. It was the sweetest because you told me that everyone should want to dance with me. And then you asked me what will happen after the prom, and my world fell apart. I’m not sure what to tell you because you’re looking into my eyes like you want to say something. Maybe it’s just my imagination, but no one ever looked at me that way before. And believe it or not you were the only person who made my night perfect.
But now, it feels like we’re some total strangers. Like we never knew each other. I just wish that I could turn back time. I wish we can still continue the friendship we had, I’m not expecting for you to like me or something. I just want to talk to you more but that seems impossible now. I’m not sure what’s going to happen, but I think that I’ll just become a part of your memory.